Just when I think I'm used to my life being a rollercoaster because of my health, it knocks me down again. The good news is I'm rarely kept down for long, and true to form I'm slowly climbing back up again.
My laptop has broken (again), and guess who forgot to email herself the last draft of her w-i-p?! Good comes out of everything though, right? Time away from my writing has helped me face up to a dilemma that I've been trying to ignore for some time: Should I really be writing a Medical right now?
These doubts have become stronger since I've finished my competition entry. While I didn't find it 'easy', I thoroughly enjoyed writing from an emotional perspective. An emotional scene without the backdrop of a medical setting.
We're getting close to the end of the year, and in a chat with Gray, it suddenly hit me that I've been quite ill in one way or another for most of it. Is it any wonder that I'm hitting problems whenever I try to write the medical bits?
Something has begun to dawn on me, maybe I'm a little too close in my 'real-life' right now to be able to face writing Medical? While I want to create the fab doctors that are sadly more often than not missing in real-life, maybe now isn't the right time for me to do so? I need some escapism from hospitals, doctors, and health issues.
I then began thinking about what I've been reading. Medicals? No. Tender/Romance and Modern Extras? Yes. Why am I reading these? For the sheer pleasure and enjoyment, and ESCAPISM.
But, I've come so far with telling Matt & Kate's story, what should I do? In desperation, having gone round and round in my head with it, I posted on an eHarlequin message board. With thanks to all the wonderful people who gave me their thoughts and insight, I'm now clearer about what I should do. Here's my revised plan:
1. I am NOT ditching Matt & Kate. I AM going to finish their story. However, I'm not going to write any more medical scenes. I'm going to focus on their relationship/romance without worrying about the word count.
2. I'm going to put this story to one side and brew and plan my next w-i-p with a major difference: It's going to be a Romance and not a Medical.
3. When I've finished this next first draft, I'll go back to Matt & Kate's story. Can I move them into a Romance setting? Or are they still too much like medical professionals? If they are happy to change their setting I'm going to rewrite it. If, as I suspect, they can't move their careers, I'm going to leave them again.
4. I'm going to remain focused on writing for the Romance line. Then, if and when I carve my dream career with HMB, I may at some 'healthier' time in the future revisit Kate & Matt in their medical setting...
5. Lastly, I'm going to stop creating dilemmas! I'm going to get on with the joy of reading and writing. I'm going to go wherever my heart takes me, because this is where my strength will lie.
Thanks, as always, for listening.