I have finally resumed my W. I. P. and already my inner doubts are flooding my mind. I've spent this evening going through a mental checklist:
- Do I know my characters? Are they grounded in my head?
- Do I know their back story?
- Do I know the setting?
- Do I know where to start the story?
Yes, I know their back story, but maybe I haven't lived with it enough.
Yes, I know the setting, but again, maybe I haven't lived with it enough.
Yes, I know where to start the story.
Now the big question: do I know why I am struggling already?
YES! It's all become clear: I'm making the same mistake I always make - I'm far too eager to start writing. I think there will always be a part of me that is a pantser, but there is also part of me that needs something of a planned outline, if for nothing other than to keep those nagging doubts at bay.
Outcome: I need to live with my characters and their story for a little longer. I need to write a more thorough outline for Chapter 1, and I need to give each scene a beginning, middle, and end.
Then, who knows, Chapter 1 may even write itself...