I really need to get Chapter 11 revised/polished before next week, but I'm NOT panicking over it. It's too hot to do much of anything except staying cool and calm. There's a great post over on Melissa's blog, Grosvenor Square to remind us of the necessity of staying motivated, balanced and disciplined. Fab stuff.
I confess I did begin to panic a bit yesterday. Extreme heat is not conducive to helping reduce MS Symptoms. It's been 32 degrees here in the UK and I'd forgotten how this level of heat affects me. It's not just normal fatigue etc. that we all get in this heat, but increased nerve pains in the body, vibrations/tremors, numbness. It's strange because I remember Spanish, Cypriot or French heat didn't affect me adversely in the past. I know the UK has a different type of heat but even so, it's also been a reminder that my numorous relapses of 2007 has progressed my condition, so maybe even European heat would affect me nowadays.
However, having said all that, since my major op 11 months ago (hysterectomy), I've experienced a remission of sorts. I still have permanent dizziness, visual problems and chronic fatigue but everything else (like the weakness in my legs) has abated. Long may this continue.
I'm refusing to let my fear of increased problems take away my enthusiasm for the up and coming RNA conference next week. I so don't want the MS to be the primary thing I'm recognised for. Which tells me I still have heaps of work to do on myself to accept that sometimes it's necessary for others to be aware of my difficulties.
Isn't it strange that when I plan to write a completely different blog post that something so different and personal comes out? I guess that's also what happens in the writing process per se. When I think I know how my characters are going to react they always surprise me!
Well, I do feel a tad lighter having shared my deep and personal stuff with you all. Thanks for listening!