About a month ago I'd been feeling particularly low and was heading towards a depression. The difference is that instead of plummeting straight into the pit, I often recognise the signs beforehand nowadays and endeavour to put some coping mechanisms into place. These can be something as simple as allowing myself a 'be good to yourself'/'duvet' day or watching an episode of Desperate Housewives/Brothers & Sisters or basically doing anything that helps me escape that threat of the hovering darkness for even a short while.
It was on this particular day that hubby and I had a heart to heart. We've been together *gulp* for seven years now and married for five of those, so it's fair to say that we know each other quite well. Graham too had recognised that I was struggling to be my 'normal-to-me' self. Our talk eventually led us to changing the course of our writing aspirations. This was a great decision but it still took me a while to filter it down enough to believe it. I then opened my email Inbox to discover this:
Your Spiritual Message For An Inspirational Day! Laura Lester Fournier
Let it go today. Allow yourself to release into the comfort of a loving Creator. Your sadness, grief, confusion, and anger must ultimately be released, in order to restore peace and joy into your life. Why hang on for a lifetime, to something that can truly be released right now? Let it go today, you are strong enough to do this.Laura Lester Fournier
There were two specific parts to this message that hit me with clarity:
- 'Your sadness, grief, confusion, and anger' - I remember thinking W-O-W these words are spot on and encapsulate everything I'm feeling: Sadness for my health difficulties. Grief for the recent death of my mother-in-law [who died from the same illness that I struggle with]. Confusion about whether I was making the right decision about my writing journey and Anger about all of the above and so much more!
- 'Let it go today, you are strong enough to do this.' There's the double whammy... 'you are strong enough'
God-incidence? Well, seeing as He knew even before I did how I was feeling and He knew that there wasn't much hope of me reading the Holy Bible at that moment. He also knew that He'd reach me at the perfect time via my Inbox.
Well, that's my understanding.
Whatever your beliefs I recommend you pay a visit to Laura's website here and consider signing up for her Daily Spiritual Message - what've you got to lose?